Live Well!

I don't know what happened to me. My quiet time is much less than I usually have. I seldom pray, I don't have the joy to go to church, I miss my fellowship with Jesus.

Strange for someone that already declared want to study in Theology and probably become a pastor?

I don't think so. I still am a human being who have my own struggles.

I want to serve My Lord with all my heart and my soul and my mind, but I keep on being bugged by the thought of how to provide for my family.
I still don't have a house for my young family, don't know if I should have children, don't know where to find a lot of money.

Of course money can not bring happiness and bla, bla, bla... but everything needs money.

I keep being reminded of Matthew 6:33-34 "But seek first God’s Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore don’t be anxious for tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Each day’s own evil is sufficient."

I am still very anxious. I don't want to become a pastor because it is the easiest way to make money, rather I really love God and choose this road because I want to completely use my ALL to His Glory.

Right now, I feel like losing all my strength. I always don't want to get up from bed and doesn't enjoy working in the office and always come home tired and exhausted.
I can not think clearly and have difficulties remembering things.

I want to have a relax and quiet life. Is it out there?
Live well is enough for me as long as Jesus name is being Glorified.
I am looking forward to this Christmas holiday to rejuvenate my life and fellowship.